where am i?
stand back.
use the measuring stick.
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start at birth,
in units of years and chapters
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always feel like i'm in constant transition
but i have actually sat still for long periods of time
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time
rushing so fast beside your ears
you can feel it in the pit of your stomach if you listen too carefully
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death is just stopping time.
time isn't infinite.
it stops when you do.
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anne is speaking to me again
she goes straight for the meat
not tender, but the toughest, bloodiest, chewiest part of it
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she isn't feeding me
i feel more impenetrable than i used to
sampling but not devouring
she won't last