have i forgotten what productivity feels like?

i spend my time thinking of whether or not i like peoples' names.

two days out of my vacation, and i am already looking for projects to keep myself occupied.
the lack of money is beginning to feel like a prison.

everyone around me seems to be waiting. everyone is holding their breath.

we all believe that relief is just around the corner.

maybe this is just a realization about all mankind. maybe this is always everyone's state of being.
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have you ever tried to explain to a child why its so hard to be an adult?
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i'm not a risk-taker;
i crave safety the most.

i sleep the best in my own bed. eat the best in my own home.

i'll take a sanctuary over the highest cliffs any day.

peace over excitement.