it would almost be better if cancer hurt like this. if my lungs felt like this all the time, i could quit so easily.

but thats the thing about cancer- it doesn't really hurt. its the treatments that are painful.

its so sunny outside and its a friday, but i have closed the blinds. i am eating cream of wheat and watching the price is right.

oh, god i hate being sick.

this is all just an incomprehensible mess because my brain is swimming in my skull.