so, downstairs guy and sister christian are both out of town and i feel a little let down that they won't be here for my departure.
but so glad that i can sing as loud as i want on my last night.

strange that i have no idea what the future brings
or if the future even exists.

and what,
what have i learned living in this place?
i have learned that i am fighter.
i am a debater.
i am a devil's advocate.

no one may ever like me,
but, damn,
they will remember me.
they will remember my words.

i am the seed of doubt
that needles.

i believe in nothing
but
i will fight for everything.

there is a value in this.

love me or hate me,
i will get a response from you.

that is a life worth living.